Moments ..

These precious moments .. are one of the reasons why life is worth living .. don't you think? :) Hari ini gw sakit .. yang gw sesalkan, why does it have to be on weekends... Saat dimana gw bisa main2 ama my ladies...

LuMiNaRa grows sooo fast .. sekarang dia udah mulai bisa ngomong2 sedikit .. udah bisa ngambeg .. udah tau kalo dimarahin .. dan udah bisa pura2 nangis ...

It scares me .. will I be a good dad? kalo gw sayang banget sama NaRa gimana? setiap dimarahin dia langsung pasang muka sedih :(( ... barusan di dapur dia dimarahin ama mamanya ... langsung deh .. bibir ditekuk .. ancang2 mau nangis :p ... gimana kalo udah SMA ya ... moga2 gw dan my wifey can handle her :) Parenthood .. is soooooo ... everything lah.

wow .. hari ini terlihat lebih cerah :)

Baru aja gw browse through facebook page dari one of my uncles. I just realized that .. he has sooo many kewl pictures. The one where he rode his harley, his MTB cycle, his scoot.. The one where he was fishing, playing golf, travelling. The one with his daughters, and his wifey, his friend.

It struck me .. kok sempet ya? how did he managed to do all of these activities .. how did he found the time to do it? His life seems to be .. fun :) just look at those smile.

At first I thought .. wow I never gonna have the money to do all of those things .. bah, I cannot even buy a decent top of the line folding bike .. let along a harley davidson :). But when I think about it .. sambil melihat jendela kantor gw di bilangan cilandak yg baru saja hujan .. it is not the money that I should think about .. it is how fun and full live can be. Suddenly my window became brighter .. the headache I've been having for the past 2 days gone! .. my heart seems to be rested after a looooong hour of waking up. Aneh .. apakah ini gara2 gw tidur kemaleman karena nonton Germany vs Spain tadi malem.. I thought today will be horrible .. tapi enggak kok :).

Am I wasting my life? Should I do more than what I have been doing lately?

Begitu banyak hal yang setiap hari kita kuatirkan .. sampai we just forgot to .. live. Salah satu quote yang pernah gw denger dari my ex-bos/tutor .. "Slow down the dance ... slow down the dance and hear the music". Sometimes we are so worried about the dance ... we forget to hear the music .. (hell is that even possible???) I think it is! The dance became a routine .. a set of memorized - trained movements... it stopped being a dance because ... well becoz it is just a routine ..

Originally, the quote was a reminder for me and my fellow lawyers at my previous firm .. it was meant to simply remind everyone to stop working once and awhile and .. live. The dance is the work, and the song is .. (wait for it) .. living :) big suprise .. but I do tend to agree.

Kadang gw terlalu pusing pikirin setiap kerjaan yg harus gw selesaikan .. dan setiap bills I have to pay. The mortgage, the loan, the household, the savings, investments etc..

I was told that planning is important (and I still believe it).. but not at the cost of the music... becoz ..dancing is about (i did stopped about 60s when thinking about this)... hell is about expressing the music through movement .. no.. .the better terms is about .. absorbing it .. and sing it again your way .. but with movements ... (oh whatever .. I'm just gonna stop trying to be poetic).

Life is just that .. what we do in our life .. is basically our opinion about life itself. That's why .. kadang2 kerja itu seperti satu2nya hidup loe ... karena memang what we do adalah cerminan langsung dari how you perceive your life ..... sadly .. if that is true .. my life is boring as hell ...

but it is not ... I know I want more out of it .. but it is not that bad ... I might not be like Alexander the Great who counquered Persia .... or Khalid bin Walid the Sword of Allah .. or all other great people in the world (doesn't mean I don't wanna be like them ya). tapi .. life is fun :) .. I just need to take more pictures of me smiling ....

Hi Again..

It has been a long time since I post in this blog. But now, I have a new way to post! By using Microsoft Word!!!! Handy isn't it :). Anyway, I started a new blog; the address is http://unlawfuljurist.blogspot.com . This blog is basically my thoughts on the field of law .. yup the field where I have been working for the last 5 years. Come to visit if you have time …….. its in Indonesian though.

Well that's it for now. I promise (like I always do every year) I will post more things hehe.

Temanku Farid

Ini foto ku dan teman ku Farid. Dulu kami beli sepeda bareng .. belajar roll tobacco bareng (akhirnya si Farid nyerah siih .. jadi pake rolling aparaat) .. dll bareng lah. Sekarang Farid senior sedang sakit. I just want to say that my prayers are with you and with your dad. I hope he’ll get well soon. Tabah dan sabar yak boss...

I want the new Lancer 2008!!!

After talking with Mr. Suzuki from Mitsubishi Corp. Me and the guys at Idmoc come to the knowledge that PT KTB (as the sole distributor of Mitsubishi vehicle in Indonesia) MIGHT sell the new Lancer next year. The bad news is that it all depends on the Mitsubishi's factory in Thailand!! wtf ... so there's a possibility that we will not have the chance to taste this buldog face baby!!

Hmmm... can I actually own one of these new shining lancer.... well .. we will have to see next year ya ..

City Street Lights...

These past few days Jakarta is not as crowded as always.. maybe it is because people is still on their holiday. Anyway .. two nights in a row I was amazed by the beauty of the sidewalk in Jalan Sudirman .. heck .. I never thought that Jalan Sudirman could be that beautiful :) ... or maybe I just missed the lonely Amsterdam's street ... the vague lightning... and the warm feeling it gave me ...

... tired

I'm tired of it ...

Mood as grim as a black tulip

 
My building is now almost empty .. It used to be a lovely bulding .. when you open the front door .. you can smell the weed from Massimo's room because he rarely close the door .. the laughter from the 2nd floor .. and the sound of nick doing something in his room. Often you will see Greg's door opened and people speaking inside .. or you can hear Seena and Ana speaking in the hall way. Nini, Tian Rui, and Lisa are always cooking. You will sometime meet Andre, Andreya, and Jap (the only dutch in the building) in the hallway. Our (me and Emilio's) room is always open and you can hear spanish music from emilio's room. Yes.. it was indeed a lively building .. I'm gonna miss this Unit 102E ... no more hanging out at Massimo's or Nicks's room .. doing stupid stuff that Nick teaches us.. Or the movie night at Nick's and Emilio's rooms. Marcella with her glossy blue bike which is rarely used .. and the sound of trams and metros that you can hear from the building :) ... My mood is grim because I have to leave this building .. the building which I considered to be my home for the last 10 months ...

Uilienstede is so busy this pass 2 days .. everyone is leaving .. u can see a lot of furniture in the garbage .. A new academical year is starting on September .. new people will be staying in our rooms .. new life will start .. will replace the lovely life we had this year .. 

a typical amsterdam's house ...

 
Just want to share a photo ;) 

Now.. it is empty.

 
But the sweet memories .. stay. 

My Life in Amsterdam

 

That board represents my life .. in Amsterdam. By taking it down and put all the stuff in to a box, means my life in Amsterdam will be over soon... 

I hate packing ...

Because its annoying!! The part where you found stuff that remind you of sumthing .. all the travelling, all the tickets, the trains, the maps .. everything !! I just hate packing .. Its not that I don't like going back home ... its just like ending your life in Amsterdam .. yup its ending.

Now my room is a mess .. I m done putting all of the books (the real treasures) to the boxes. I just hope that in 3 months, they will reach Jakarta .. if not .. darn!

2nd time in de' robe ..

 

yup.. my 2nd academical robe ... and still in red .. yes .. still law .. :p 

VU LL.M Graduation Day

 

Look at us ... bunch of llms .. ;) 

Paris.. is Paris.. it will always be..

 
I'm on fire now .. before I learn how to actually put my pictures in folders .. I'm just going to post it via picasa ..

*must ask Farid to teach me!* 

One tulip memory..

 

I should've write more often in this blog :) .. I don't know why .. but I just want to post this picture.. no one will read this post .. heck, even I rarely post in my own blog .. well I don't care .. 

It's ending ...

It's funny ... right now i'm sitting in my room writing a post in my blog .. its 4 o'clock in the morning in Amsterdam.. and one of my friend is leaving and I might not see him again.

He's name is Nick.. a guy from US that know a lot of stuff...

It's funny.. I just realized that I did not spent much time with him and the other guys in the building..

Now I can hear his voice saying that when he comes back to the building, everybody will be gone..

I may not be 'that' close to him, unlike Emilio or Massimo, they hang out really often .. and that's make me think .. why I was'nt there? .. all I know that, now.. I regret not hanging out with them more often ... Darn, seriously, I regret it.. and it's too late now.

Well, it's bound to happen rite? starting from Nick, everyone else will live in July. Rati will be gone after the graduation ceremony, after that, Ana will be gone..and so on and on..

:), I'll miss them... even though I rarely hang out with them .. I'm gonna miss them being there.. especially the people from 102E! Nick, Emilio, Massimo, Ana, Seena, Greg, Marcella, Lisa, Tian Rui, Nini... everyone.

Now.. I'm wondering .. did I really live my life in Amsterdam ?? .... it's only 1 month away from leaving .. for good..

the end is near.. and the new chapter will start .. why am I sad?

Traveling vs Wealth ...

Now here I am ... in one of those sunless morning in Holland, looking at the windows. How many windows will I look into in my life? How many skies? hehe .. why do I feel that I will not be given the chance to see everything? Who needs to see everything? Is it really the purpuse of a man .. to see everything? or ... at least almost everything.. Our feet are so small, our eyes are so blinded, and our mind is so clouded.

I want to see more skies .. from more different windows, with different funny white frames :). Will I be given the chance? or should I create one ..

Where should I go next ...

If I can .. I wish I am always traveling, from places to places, from station to station ... to leave all the burdens behind .. just go where and when ever I want :)... it is sad ... I am 26 now .. but I have not seen 26 cities ... 26 stations ... Why should people settled down? why? There are just to many things to see .. to many stations to stop by ... 

Ada beca di Rotterdam

You can even find becak in Rotterdam ... a month ago .. I met this guy who actually peddling an original Indonesian becak .. I asked the guy where in Amsterdam .. no in Netherlands di you buy this becak ???

He actually said that he bought directly from Indonesia (wtf?? globalization anyone?) The becak was sooo cheap .. but the shipping! damn.

Anyway, he said that this becak is very good. He has 3 lil children .. so becak suits him well :D

It is so funny .. I can see bits of Indonesian stuff here in The Netherlands ... ya well .. 350 years of "relationship" will actually let things like finding a beca in the middle of the city (in Netherlands) happens :p